Physical connections. Trust. Love.

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    • I’m 41 & single and don’t want to be but every time I get close to someone I forget about me and taking care of me and it becomes all about them (I don’t understand why I’m like this with every relationship friends & romantically), and I end up taking steps backwards instead of forward and need time to heal after. Which makes me feel that I’m better off single, but I don’t want to be because of loneliness.  I’m faithful and want to fall and stay in love with one person, not this in and out of relationships. I hate it. The second thing is fear of getting close to people & then losing them to death or maybe they’ve left or moved or have relationships now or less time overall or I’ve cut them off because they are users or because they are toxic or negative or because they have nothing in common with me anymore. There are so many reasons why I don’t know how to trust new people… it sucks because I need physical contact and I’m 41 never married and no kids and quit smoking so don’t do bars, no single men at my church, don’t believe in dating people I work with etc, so it’s hard to meet people. Easier when I was younger.


    What’s your take?

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    First off sorry for the delay in responding, this site has been under maintenance and offline for a while. It’s possible that you have a co-dependent personality, which means that you are so dependent upon a relationship, that “the relationship” is more important than YOU in the relationship – this makes you prioritize the other person over yourself to the point of self-neglect, which is the pattern you describe. Sometimes the root cause of this personality type, is insecure attachment as a child, where you grew up feeling insecure, unsafe, maybe fearing abandonment or rejection from a parent or care-giver? This insecurity can carry over into adulthood, where you still fear the loss of a relationship (maybe through rejection, or as you mention death). Remember, fears are not necessarily realistic – they can be based on faulty thinking that has it’s roots in early life experiences. This fear of losing a relationship may be causing you to subconsciously  avoid closeness with people, as a way of protecting yourself from potential hurt. So you may have an imbalanced psychological approach to relationships: on the one hand you are co-dependent so you over-value the relationship at the expense of your own needs, and on the other hand fear of some type of loss, causes you to avoid healthy closeness.

    You need to start with developing healthy self-esteem. Your inner thoughts should not be self-critical, but rather they should be validating and self-compassionate. The most important relationship you will ever have is the one with yourself, so work on developing a healthier sense of self first. When this is in place, then you may view other relationships differently, and you may behave in healthier ways too, which will change your patterns.

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