Thank you for sharing. I understand your reasons for wanting to taper off the celexa, but any changes in medication should really be supervised by a psychiatrist. It sounds like you are having some withdrawal effects. Please seek medical advice regarding this.
Sometimes medicine is needed to correct a chemical imbalance in the brain. And sometimes there are holistic ways to handle this. Some natural ways to combat depression include slow deep breathing several times a day, meditation, exercise, positive social interactions, having a hobby, having a structured routine, nurturing spiritual development, staying involved in meaningful activities. There are also certain foods which enhance seratonin production, and sometimes increasing certain vitamins such as B12, vitamin D and iron can help. A support group, or talk therapy, such as cognitive behavior therapy, is also very effective in helping you to develop more healthy thinking patterns. All the above require commitment and consistency.
But the first step is to seek a doctor (or psychiatrist’s) guidance. Tapering off meds, especially after you’ve been on them for so long, should be done gradually and under medical supervision only. During menopause many hormonal changes can also affect mood regulation, so it’s important to have a medical assessment to make sure there are no biological causes that may be affecting your mood. It may seem like a bumpy road, but if you can find meaning and purpose in life, then this journey will be easier.