Hello, thank you for sharing this deeply personal problem. All the symptoms you’ve described are symptoms of depression. Depression can be treated, but you really need to reach out for face-to -face help. Starting with cognitive behavior talk therapy would be a good idea. Does your school have a school counselor you can talk to? Or is there a teacher that you trust, who you could ask for help? If there really is no free counseling available, then a second option would be to go to your physician and tell him what you have described here. He might prescribe an antidepressant, which can help you. You don’t have to feel this way.
There are some other simple things you can do to help. Exercise helps the body release endorphins which are hormones that elevate mood. Please do 30 minutes of aerobic exercise at least 4 times a week. I know you feel like you have no energy, but force yourself. And force yourself to engage in positive social activities, with family or friends.If you are staying isolated in your room, force yourself to sit with the family. If you’re on the internet a lot, force yourself to talk to a friend, go for a walk, or work on something you used to enjoy. The key word is “force” yourself. The voice of depression persuades you to detach from people and life, and that will only make things worse.
You mention that you have suicidal ideation, but you would not actually do it due to religion. If you believe in God, then pray and ask for His help. Have faith that whatever you are going through, it can pass, things can get better. But you need to seek treatment. Please have a look at the below video on depression: http://www.upworthy.com/what-is-depression-let-this-animation-with-a-dog-shed-light-on-it
Online counseling is not enough for you, please reach out to a trusted adult and ask for help.
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